I've not been sleeping or eating well, and I know all those things are tied into my mental health as well. I'm not worried, I'm just waiting it out. I spent a good deal of time relaxing this weekend. I read a few books and watched some TV with the kids.
This week has been a good one. Frances has violin camp and she's doing really well with it. I got to listen to her group practicing yesterday and I teared up with how wonderful they sound. They will get to perform with a local band at a music festival next weekend and she's very excited about it. I love watching her grow her talent and blossom.
Henry has been spending the week with my friend Julie. He actually spent the night Monday night, in a last minute decision. He was fine with being away from home and I got really good reports about his attitude and behavior while he was gone. He's had a great time and I"m so thankful to Julie for being able to help me out.
Benjamin and I had a talk this week about not crying all the time. Usually when he doesn't get his way, his immediate response has been to turn on the waterworks. I kindly explained to him that he's getting to old for that sort of thing and it doesn't really work to get him his way anyway. I won't say the tears are over, but they aren't lasting as long lately.
Last night we went for a walk in the cemetery. Actually, the kids took their bikes/scooters and Ken and I walked. It was nice to watch them going in circles around us as we held hands and talked. They stopped at the "gas station" every few circuits to share some Gatorade from Ken's backpack. They laughed and giggled as they rode past each other. They lined up with no arguments when we said it was time to go home.
Life is good. I have nothing to complain about. It just seems that I'm going through lots of motions and emotions right now. I don't know the solution and I don't know that I necessarily need one. I think I can just wait this out. I'm giving it until this weekend before I start to worry, and maybe not even then.
Do you ever feel like you're going through motions or emotions? How long does it last? Can you pinpoint any causes?