Welcome, 2015! Welcome back, blog readers. I'm sorry if I left you in a bit of a lurch. I had intended to do some blogging over my break, but it just never happened. It even feels weird to be sitting here typing now. But I figured the first day of the new year would be as good as any to get back on this blogging horse.
I plan on doing a recap of our Christmas and other break activities, but tonight there is a word calling to me. It popped into my head all of a sudden and I wasn't quite sure why it was there at first. I had been thinking of New Year's Resolutions (more to come on those for Tuesday), but this didn't really fit the direction I wanted to go with them.
I finally realized that this word was giving me a mission for my year. Last year, I chose the word 'stillness.' I truly believe that word allowed me to savor the moments of nothing and delight in taking it easy. Last year we improved the prayer life of our entire house and I worked on teaching the kids about the joy of speaking with God and listening for His answer. Stillness was a great word for me last year.
This year, however, feels like a year of action. To be honest, the word that came to me almost sounded a bit angry and violent, but that's not the way I am choosing to interpret it. No, I believe this word can be a continuation of last year's stillness in many ways.
One of the things that I often complain about is that we have completely run out of room in our house. There is often a line for the bathroom, the hallway needs a traffic light, and there is stuff everywhere! I truly want to have a place for everything and everything in it's place, but I have finally realized that 'the place' for a lot of stuff is just not going to be in my house!
We have too much! There is clutter in our house, in our minds, and in our bodies. One of the things that I often recall in my moments of stillness is that God will always provide for us. I am really feeling called to realize that holding on to so many things "just in case" is actually quite an insult to God. In holding on to things, I am not trusting Him to provide for us. It seems especially stupid when the things I hold on to end up being completely useless.
Today in my kitchen, I found a Hello Kitty lunchbox that used to belong to Frances. It was on the shelf next to the cereal and it was in my way. I took it down to think of a better place to put it and I realized a few things:
- Frances has a nice lunchbox that matches her backpack. She never uses this one.
- There are no other girls in the house that need a lunch box.
- We have other spare lunchboxes.
- This one is filthy dirty and torn across the back!!!
Honestly, that lunch box sitting on my shelf just made me mad. I had held on to it in case we ever needed a spare one day, but the reality is that no one would have used it because of its condition. And it was no good for a donation because even people who shop at thrift stores have pride and no one would want a dirty, torn lunch box. Basically I had a piece of trash sitting on top of my shelves for longer than I care to think about.
Throwing away that lunch box today was a pivotal moment for me. I gave myself permission to realize its uselessness and just get rid of it! And in doing so, I thought of all the other junk in my house that just needs to go. (Incidentally, I'm typing in the kids' room after lights out and Idina Menzel is currently singing..."Let it Go!")
My word for this year is PURGE. I am going to purge things from my house, basement to second floor. I'm going to give myself permission to trash things that have no use and give away things that have no use to us. I'm going to purge thoughts and attitudes from my head that are keeping me from being the best me I can be. I'm going to be very busy getting rid of the things that are holding me back. And I'm still going to take some time to just be still.
How about you? Do you have a word for the year? Or a goal that you hope to accomplish?
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