I saw the prompt, and I started to freak out a bit.
It reminded me that I've got so much left to do! Sewing and painting and wrapping. And the shopping I can't do until I get paid on Monday. Not to mention all the housework that needs to be done. My kids can't even find clean underwear in the morning because I'm so behind on laundry!
And then I took a deep breath and reminded myself about why the prompt is prepare. Those other things up there? They don't really matter in the scheme of things. If that's all I'm worried about this time of year, then I'm doing it wrong. It's not about all those external preparations.
It's inside. I need more work on getting my heart and my head ready. The thing to prepare is me.
We were all angry and yelling this morning. I honestly don't understand how the kids can't get the routine down when we've been doing it five days a week for five months! It stresses me out and makes me angry. I don't like starting my day like that.
And I almost skipped our prayer time. But we didn't. And to be frank, I felt like an asshole starting out prayer with a clench in my jaw because of all the behavior issues this morning. And then we read about Mary. That Mary understands. That she hears her people and reaches out to them where they are. That she appeared to Juan Diego is the guise of a Native Mexican woman; in a language he could understand.
And then I drove the kids to school and Your Grace is Enough came on the radio. And I'm reminded that no matter what God will always be there to help me prepare my heart for Him. He meets me where I am and gently pulls me back to where I need to be.
So I'm letting go of the harsh words from this morning. I'm starting over (again) and I'm going to concentrate on readying the things the really need to be prepared. All the rest will fall into place exactly as it should be. If only I will prepare my heart. And theirs.
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